windyafair

Written at Friday, July 3, 2009 | back to top

Am I useless?
Useless in studies.
Useless in communicating with people.
Useless in handling relationships.

I am wondering what is my strength because I could only see my weakness recently. Where has all my strength gone to? My weaknesses keep showing up these days.

Studies ... common test results :
CA - A
PT - B
PDP - C
EID - D
I thought I would fail my EID and I am prepared to take sub-paper when school re-opens but I got a just pass. Thanks to the lecturer. This 'D' that I had achieved is going to pull down my GPA because this module has 6 credit units. My dream of getting into university is gone, I failed in my studies in secondary once, will I failed a second time in Ngee Ann??

Communication ...
Every Friday, I would join the other class for my CA practical lesson. Somehow or rather, I can't seems to be able to click with them. I felt so lonely during that 2 hrs, just hope to finish the lab as soon as possible every Friday afternoon.

Relationships ...
Am I taking things too hard?
Am I poking my nose too much into other people's business?
Am I very irritating?
Am I ???????

I wish someone could give me an answer. I wish someone would give me the solutions for my troubles. Everything seems to go wrong whether its at home or with him. Families and him doesn't seems to understand what I am trying to put across to them. Or maybe I am bothering too much? Or I am just plainly irritating to people? Or people just simply disliked me?

I really don't know. I tried my best in everything I do but why things just can't work out? I am tired, really.

I am hoping for miracle to happen. I want laughter and happiness to fall on me again.

I appreciate everyone who had once stand by me, my gfs,families and darling. Thank you.

Written at Friday, July 3, 2009 | back to top